LOSERS: part 1

Aug 15th 5:45PM

R u a loser??? I asked myself many times..........Mirror was not enough clear to show my brown face....Tears didnt allow me to see the mirror......I was cryng.
I know it was unfare to be emotional like a kid or a silly girl.......Every thing caused after that mail.It was not a usual mail. His name was sajin. He was not so handsome...But everybody in my office liked him thaan me( again comparison!!!!! why are you comparing yourself with others?????)...


Any way, he is a good friend of mine...The letter was like this.....

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From: sajin.narayan
Date: Aug 15, 2008 11:53 AM
Subject:Hi Da
To: "sreenadhs@gmail.com"



Hi sreenadh,


Da i know wat all i does is utter foolishness.....wen all people enjoy their life...i alone stay apart.....no company with any one....sitting inside a shell.....thinking that wat i does is right .....and others are fools.....there is no true loving friend....speak mostly to gals...that too to divya and parvathy.....and now lastly...escaping from all of you




Yes i was explaining myself...da i really don't wanna myself to behave like this.....i really wanna b friendly with every one....But i'm forced to b like this .....just to supress myself from bursting out....

Da as u all know...wat i treasure more in my life was divya and parvathy....i loved them more than anyone in this world....it's true that in that relation i gained a lot of things....I believe that God helped us to b in out stand and keep up the purity in that relation....as time goes on we became aware of our responsibilities and we became the real brother and sister........In the long run we attained that purity in our life....she was a real sister to me...more than that she was a mamma to me...she will scold me wen i wrong...i will scold her wen she is wrong....

It was my intense desire that she need to get a Loving husband that can share all her sadness and love her more than anything..i used to tell her that i willl talk to her future husband and put forward my requirements in marrying her( i mean i will ask him to not to make her cry...to love her)....

In return she was also like that to me....Da for me there is no one in this world...may b no one will b aware of this fact...for me the meaning of word love was in Dict after 9th standard...my mind will b always in a grieving state....but divya and parvathy was able to change me a lot..they gave me wat i need...so i loved them the most...i wanna them to b with me as my little sis till my death....

But again every good thing has an end na??? all things in this world need to have an end.....so is our relation....it ended....
This was not a happy thing for me....this was the second earthquake in my life...i'm overcoming it now....rarely very few people knew it...i also want u to keep this confedential.....

Now i'm into another phase in my life....now i have no personal relation with any one in this world...( u may ask y can't i setup frz...if u have this doubt..there is no wonder....da i have many other issues also...)

Da now my real friends are God, Computer and my Mob...

Da sometimes wen i overcome from the shock i will come back to u all.... But now let me go afar ....let me live a solitary life for a year or so....let me digest all wat i had received....

But one thing i know u all r good people to b selected as a friend,...but the time for that has not yet come.....


Da leave all the mess......I'm stopping...Bye da take care

With love,

sajin

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I dont kno why he wrote a long letter like this to me.......we could see eachother everyday at office but he never mentioned these things to me
( Sajin is my team mate and screwed up his life by the same PM ).......Parvathy was a new person for me But...I know divya, she is from nearby team....We discuss a lots of things except toooo personal things....I know his family.....he knows mine...dat solve...But I am sure, we are best frnds.....I want to share our story with you....wait for that.................